The Creation of Kruyology
This work started in Life as a letter of sorrow. I struggled with this one as I did not understand why I was sorry for my behaviour. On reflection, I was running a programme of operation (computer) that I had been pre-conditioned into at home and school—which isn’t beneficial to any living being.
I had a lot to learn.
Having come from a troubled childhood, my normal was not rational and far from ideal. I vividly remember a time when hiding on the stairs, looking through the railings from my place of safety, telling the family cat (Busby) I would never be like them (the tormented adopted parents).
It turned out to be one of the most critical moments of my life. One I only realised whilst writing this paragraph was that I had made a pact to operate out of Love and not Fear. It was a decision which took another thirty years to work out, to a degree where I could advocate the understanding.
After running away from home at 16, I tried to be mentally strong and genuine as they taught in school. But I couldn’t operate as the best version of myself after a troubled childhood, conjectured by an overcomplicated derailing system of understanding (psychology). There didn’t seem to be an answer until now. One fits perfectly around all the mental conflicts it applies to within everyday occurrences in everyone’s lives.
I couldn’t understand why people were so nasty? My triggers had heckled me and trapped me in a cycle of Fear; many of them were just memories being recalled, attaching themselves to the current reality itself.
Nobody had ever told me I could not suffer from the past (depression) or the future (anxiety) because they’re two things that do not exist. What I suffered from was a memory; however, that was possible? But it was true and happening daily, in every moment and to a large percentage of the population.
I had come to realise from observing many other friends who were also looking for answers, that something was missing. I hadn’t realised a part of me had set out to find the answer, a motivational force I hadn’t reckoned with. I now realise it was apart of me, which was indeed the most powerful component part of every being in the world.
Essentially this letter (book) was about an important matter which was:
Unknowingly, I had embarked upon a rollercoaster journey of huge proportions, learning and relearning an understanding which had been so railroaded, it was no longer visible. Yet it was the most important thing we ever had. In reflection, I had to unlearn what I had been ‘told to think’.
I had found something which I themed Kruyology – The meaning of Life, it seemed Life had given me all of the experiences from people with different issues in order for me to understand just this.
All of the events were the beginning of something SO immensely important I needed to write it down and share it with you. For the first time ever, something made complete sense after all the years of confusion, looking in places where we had no hope of finding what was wrong with everything in our world.
This work forms the conclusions to my observational experiences and they need your serious consideration whoever you are and wherever you are going. Nobody ever knew any better, your current operating system was everybody’s normal, normality cannot be questioned unless you’re given another relative perspective from which to challenge it.
The full chapter explaining The Creation of Kruyology can be found in the book, Kruyology – The Meaning of Life